This series chronicles the first time I decided to au pair and I spend two months in a foreign country by myself. Should I do something out of my comfort zone and something meant for younger people?
Introverted Beginnings
When I tell people I used to be an introvert, it’s usually met with a lot of disbelief and eye rolls. But it’s true. Growing up I was timid. Anxiety coursed through my body as I talked to new people, and I never preferred group projects over individual ones. I didn’t think it was a bad quality. That’s just me, right? But there was a problem- it kept me from experiences. I missed social events and other activities. Come over and we ride together? Sure. Meet you there? By myself? Count me out. Parties are just parties. I could live with missing those. However, I also missed learning experiences. In my early 20s, I found a summer camp where I could be an English language counselor in Italy. For years I thought about it. There was always a weak excuse- I should work summer school for extra money instead. My boyfriend doesn’t like the idea. (Clearly, he was not the one). But let me be real. The true reason I never applied to the program was fear. Fear of doing something too bold I couldn’t handle. Fear that I would fail at being a counselor because of my apprehensive personality. Fear that if anything went wrong, I couldn’t just easily come back.
Years passed. I never did go to that summer camp. And then about a year ago, I was scrolling through Facebook and saw a post about au pairing. I had never thought of that before. Honestly, I didn’t know exactly what it was except for the fact that at 29 years old I was probably too old. Isn’t that a job for young college students on their summer breaks? Or for those who are taking a year off the “find themselves?” I have a real job now. I can’t do that anymore. Great. There I went with excuses again. So I made a motto for my year. This year I turn 30, and I’m going to just do it. Thank you, Nike, for the inspiration you have given people for years. I am finally following through. Just Do It. “It” referring to anything and everything I had always wanted to do but had let fear stand in the way.
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